I Doubt Theres A Better Place For Anyone Until We Learn Love

So I am sitting here at my brothers house, watching it since it got broken into today. I don't have much to do so I had a lot of thinking to do. I was kinda reading over some of my past blogs and I realized that I sort of strayed from the point of my blog. It was supposed to be how certain songs made me feel and why. I noticed I don't go into as much detail as I originally planned. So I decided to try to fix that today. This song is from one of my very favorite Hardcore bands Carpathian. It's called "Spirals" and it rules my life.



Artist: Carpathian
Song: "Spirals"


Lyrics: "Spirals"

I doubt theres a better place for anyone, we're vampires feeding on distrust,
Its time we grow the fuck up and learn to love,
I know I said, we're all so dead, but I'm not ready for death yet
So quick to point the finger, before looking inside
Yet all young lovers know why nightmares plague they're minds
We know true love, is just a curse, in a fucked up world, that's getting worse
But youths forgiving eyes, stare aimlessly, and carelessly we fuck all through the night, in the shadows of the city lights.
I'll never love again. I'll never love anything.

Not for one second can I imagine a retraction
How much longer can we take beauty for granted?
We've a lack of reason, an absence of passion
We're without clarity, in a world of empty vision and

I doubt there's a better place for anyone until we learn love


What I am now coming to realize with the help of this song, is that a lot of us here in the desert lack passion for what we do. Everyday it's just the same routine. Everyday just sort of blends in with the rest. Nothing crazy is happening. Nothing exciting is going on. So many of us are at such low points in our lives and I can't really explain why. I know for me, and maybe even for Mark, it's because we are learning to live without something we've had for so long. Both of us had someone we loved and now both of us are single. I don't believe that I will never love again, but true love is definitely a curse. It is a double-edged sword that will cut you deeper than you will anticipate. Ever heard the saying, "Play with fire and you're gonna get burned"? Well that's what love is. It's the best thing that will ever happen to you but once you're without it, it will be the worst.

But we need to get over that. I've become so afraid to getting burned again that I couldn't imagine falling in love anytime soon. I am not looking for it to happen anytime soon, but what I need to do is follow my own advice and stop worrying about it. I need to learn how to love myself and love the things around me again because I really don't need love to be happy. I need to remember how to love my life again. I'm going to stop worry about the repricussions of things and I'm just going to live my life how I see fit. Always taking in the signs I come across along the way.

So this is my challenge to myself and to anyone that reads this. Lets learn to love ourselves and lets learn how to love what we have. I know it's not that easy, but that's why it's a challenge. The next time you think you're in a shitty spot in life, call yourself a coward. If you don't like the hand life deals you, throw some cards back and ask for a new one. Fucking do something about it. And if you won't call yourself a coward, remember that I will be calling you one through this post. We need to learn to persevere and push forward. You know how there is always someone better than you, well there is always someone who is worse. So fuck your regrets. Fuck everything. I'm down for anything.



Now that that's all out of the way, check out this live video if you want. It's cool because I think it does a good job of capturing their essence live.