Artist: Just Surrender
Song: "So Close/So Alive"
Lyrics:
It looks like you need some company
Your face is wearing such misery
I'll stay right here if you, if you want me to
(I want you to)
And if our worlds collide
A smile I should provide
I'll turn your fantasies into something real
Cause, baby, get inside
To the top, and nothing's gonna stop us
No roots or chains there to hold us
Today will be the day we reach the sky
So long to things that just were made up
So close that you can almost taste it
Today will be the day we reach the sky
I like the way you look tonight
Your dress has drawn me to your eyes
I know that it's a stretch
Would you let me stay?
(I'll let you stay)
You got me in a trance
And if you take a chance
I'll make your memories into something more
Just open up your eyes
To the top, and nothing's gonna stop us
No roots or chains there to hold us
Today will be the day we reach the sky
So long to things that just were made up
So close that you can almost taste it
Today will be the day we reach the sky
You know that I will be next to you
When morning comes, I'll still be true to you
(You say you'll never leave)
And I won't, dear
(But how can I believe?)
Just trust me, please
(I can't explain how much I need you)
Don't say a word
Your body will speak for you
(You can be the reason I'm alive)
You're already everything I've got
(Hold me close; keep me on my toes)
To the top, and nothing's gonna stop us
No roots or chains there to hold us
Today will be the day we reach the sky
So long to things that just were made up
So close that you can almost taste it
Today will be the day we reach the sky
(Hold me close)
To the top, and nothing's gonna stop us
(Keep me on my toes)
No roots or chains there to hold us
Today will be the day we reach the sky
(Today will be the day we reach the sky)
(Hold me close)
So long to things that just were made up
(Keep me on my toes)
So close that you can almost taste it
(Today will be the day we reach the sky)
Today will be the day we reach the sky
Singing along with this song really brings me down. It makes me want to be able to have it be about me and my situation. Thats the thing though, I don't have a situation. This song reminds me of that early feeling when you're still falling in love... Where you're barely realizing it and it feels like nothing can ever go wrong. I miss that. I WANT that. I want to be able to sing this song with someone special. I love singing, and to have someone sing with me would make me so happy, but there's no one.
I guess what I've been feeling lately is loneliness but to a different extent. This isn't like the, "man how cool would it be to have a girlfriend again" type of loneliness. It's more along the lines of, "man, I feel so distant from everyone I was ever close to" kind of loneliness. I feel like I've been such a shitty friend lately. I'm not exactly sure why. But I feel like I'm losing touch with all the people I want to have close to me. I honestly don't know what happened. Maybe I got lost in heaven. By that I mean; maybe I lost myself trying to be something I wasn't. I went about this whole life changing thing the wrong way. Not that there is necessarily a right way, but I feel like since that, things have been looking up in some areas, but looking down in others. Sure I was a lot happier and I still kind of am, but I'm starting to see things differently. I'm starting to see other sides of people and I am starting to believe that I am the cause of it. It's like I forgot how to notice other people's feelings or something. Like I was so absorbed in myself that I couldn't notice that I was bothering others. Now I feel so far from everything and it's probably because I unknowingly pushed everything away. I feel like I've forgotten how to balance everything. I try to help out but end up causing more problems. I try to be there for something, but end up smothering. Try to patch things up, only to pull it apart even more...
I don't know what I'm doing right now. I am trying to find myself. All I can ask is that you stick with it and ride this out with me. I promise to try my best to get cool again. To be worth having around cause right now I feel like I'm not. And please if you ever need to talk about something, hit me up. Helping people helps me. Lets help eachother.
