Give You The Gun, Blow Me Away

This next song goes out to anyone that's ever been dropped by someone you were close to, watched someone you love turned into someone you hate, or even just realized you yourself turned into something you don't want to be. I bring you "Change (In the House Of Flies)" by Deftones




Here is the music video if you're interested: Change Music video


Artist: Deftones
Song: "Change (In The House of Flies)"

Lyrics: "Change (In The House Of Flies)"

I watched you change
Into a fly,
I looked away,
You were on fire.

I watched a change,
In you,
It's like you never,
Had wings,
Now you feel so alive,
I've watched you change.

I took you home,
Set you on the glass,
I pulled off your wings,
Then I laughed.

I watched a change,
In you,
It's like you never,
Had wings,
Now you feel so alive,
I've watched you change.

It's like you never,
Had wings.

Aaaahhh-ah-aaaahhh (x6)

I look at the cross,
Then I look away,
Give you the gun,
Blow me away.

I watched a change in you,
It's like you never had wings,
Now you feel so alive,
I've watched you change.

Now you feel alive,
You feel alive,
You feel alive,
I've watched you change.

It's like you never,
Had wings.

Aaaahhh-ah-aaaahhh (x6)

You've changed,
You've changed,
You've changed,
Into a fly.


What I love about this song is the way it pulls you in and envelopes you in it. I love ambient stuff and this is exactly that. What's weird is that it sorta makes you feel down. Like, right away the mood is just down and dark. I get off on stuff like that though lol.

But back to the point of the post, I picked this because I've seen people come and go in my life. I've watched as some of my closest friends changed so much in high school. I watched the shy, nerdy kid transform into the obnoxious alcoholic that nobody wants around. I watched as my best friend dove into a life of parties and eventually stopped coming around. But they aren't always bad. I am actually pround of my friend Ray. He went off to the military and had a kid and is very responsible. I actually look up to him now.

But I'm not here to cast blame. I myself have changed plenty throughout my life. And I also have watched my own relationships change with other people. I've been battling with this feeling that I'm not fun anymore. I feel like I've run out of all the good ideas. Well, I guess what it really is is that I'm so concerned with making sure everyone else is happy and doing what they want to do, that I've run out of things to do. I've become so used to just going along with what everyone else wants to do. I feel like I've lost my originality.